I have had so much on my mind lately, it’s been so fucking distracting. I’ll go back a little bit and explain why this is bothering me so much. The last week of college was so amazing, but it left me with so many questions about where Ty and I are at in our relationship. Last weekend was amazing, but left me wanting more, which won’t happen unless we are back together as boyfriend/girlfriend. None of this really good friends shit. I want so bad to say I am okay with what we are right now, but I would be lying to myself if I did. I miss him so much it almost hurts. It kills me not knowing what went wrong with our relationship. I mean, it went from him practically saying he loved me to, there was no spark. Like, what the FUCK!!!! I’ve let it go for the last month and a half, but I don’t know how much longer I can. I miss him so much. When he left Tech to go home and I had to stay another 5 days for RA crap, I bawled when he left. I was so upset, and I don’t even know why. I can’t get him off my mind for more than a few minutes it seems and it has got me so distracted. All I want is to just be with him more than anything. I would GIVE anything just so see him. I mean, I’ll see him in a little bit because he is coming up to canoeing with some of his friends, and I’m going too, but it’s not the same when he’s around his friends. I want it to be just US!!
Okay, I’m done now…..




